focus?

i'm under suspicion for cheatin... damn it.

i've decided... i'm gonna focus.

monkey boy!

well been rather lazy to update lately... so let's backtrack and recap...

Yesterday
it was damn hilarious... fahm was going ard sayin dat she was no longer gonna slack... time to be serious. and guess what? on the first day of skool - we skipped it halfway to go catch movie and eat =) we saw ghost train... well it was pretty freaky (da effects) but da plot was pretty lame... i'm not even sure who is dead and who is alive *huh*

Today
nth much happened... communication lesson today... u can say dat it was pretty boring... but there is something dat makes my whole day worthwhile =) monkey boy *lol* he's incredibly charming... maybe i'll get his number? *wink*

Maybe you're the missing link?

first day of skool

early mornin now... first day of skool... da fac hasnt come yet, and i'm boreeeeed stiff... hmmm he's damn late, he has to write me an email why... lol

i have a feelin skool is gonna be borinnnng this term... damn but at least my friends are a sight for sore eyes =) update later when some drama mama goes into action *wink*

changed blogskin

i've not come online for a while now... as to why, i prefer not to get into da nitty gritty details... anyways i've changed my blogskin... pretty cool eh? nice and simple... hahaha =) although i lost a few codings to beautify my blog, thanks to dumb dumb yours truly... it's alright, i'll just make do with what i have now *wink* anyways da gal at da side has short hair... like me! lame (like what da manjens usually do) -_-" *lol*

manjen blogs

lookin at manjen blogs. tsk tsk tsk. makin their blogs look so heartbroken. i love you. why did you leave me. running after you. crying here crying there... crying at da explanade. the rooftop. on the roads. man, these people. tryin to be fragile and weak. act cute. act pitiful. come on ppl, guys dun go for weak gals who cry all da time. shape up. gals rule. we dun need guys in our lives. all of you are so stereotypical. come on, we are strong. please go and get a life. life aint all about crying you know.

and guys who like act cute gals, please go and get a life as well. just my two cents worth. cheers.

blonde pineapple

i look like a butch. lesbian. pineapple. lol.

i look like a pineapple airhead. i cut my hair, it's a lil too short.... da damn laydee cut toooo short laa... dat kuku... and den i highlighted my hair. bad highlightin job. i guess i'm doomed for hair disasters... and da worst thing is, i get gals askin for my number. omg. well, it's pretty cool in a way... at least i can look back and say dat i used to attract both guys and gals *wink* i just hope dat my hair grows back fast... i'm straight you know? s-t-r-a-i-g-h-t. STRAIGHT.

bLeah.

I haven't ever really found a place that i call home,
I never stick around quite long enough to make it.
I apologize that once again I'm not in love,
But it's not as if i mind that your heart ain't exactly breaking.

It's just a thought, only a thought.

But if my life is for rent, and I don't learn to buy.
Then I deserve nothing more than I get,
'Cause nothing I have is truly mine.

I always thought that I would love to live by the sea,
To travel the world alone and live more simply.
I have no idea what's happened to that dream,
'Cause there's really nothing left here to stop me.

It's just a thought, only a thought.

But if my life is for rent, and I don't learn to buy.
Then I deserve nothing more that I get,
'Cause nothing I have is truly mine.

While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down,
While I am so afraid to fail so i won't even try,
Then how can I say that I'm alive?

But if my life is for rent, and I don't learn to buy.
Then I deserve nothing more than I get,
'Cause nothing I had was truly mine.

nothing gonna stop me nowwww

i'm workin my way towards it. i can feel myself getting closer and closer... and nothing is gonna stop me now.

gosh, i probably sounded psychotic sayin dat last line =)

sick of it all

yea da damn house is in chaos again... freak it i injured my arm while fightin with dat bitch sis of mine... i wish she never came back... i'm so tired of all of this... when will it ever end?

Crazy

it's now early mornin... and i'm sittin here in da room... sis is sleepin... i have no idea what i'm doin staying awake... i'm crazy. Insane. Zombified. Lol.

cuzzies

yeps... my two cousins who came to stay are going home tomorrow... i'm kinda glad in a way... yea, they were cute... but i really cant stand kids. Especially when they pull your hair. Jump on you when you're sleeping. Keep thinkin they're transparent and block the entire tv. Wake you up at the crack of dawn. Steal your pillow and blankie. Kick your face in the middle of the night. Deprive you of sleep!!! Break your guitar case. Terrorise all your friends. Attempt to break your laptop. Take away the little privacy you have. Make you buy food for them cuz they're too fussy to eat what is at home. Shout, no SCREAM the whole day. Find all possible ways to irritate you. Put on an innocent face when you scold them. Keep playing the same old boring game on your laptop. Whine if you don't let them. Yeah, that's all. Other than that, they're pretty cute.

yay!

today it was pretty boring... went out for a few job interviews... came home... watched a lil tv... went joggin... came home... watched tv again... bLeah... it's starting to be a routine... b0ring.

i cant be bothered with evrything right now... lols i'm so tireeeeed... i think i know what i'm gonna do now... *winks*

Change

Change is a big thing... I guess no one can change overnight yea?

Nope, haven't cooled down yet

i guess i've cooled down now... after talkin to my friends... thanks so much! you were right... no one can ruin my life cuz i am in full control of it... and i aint gonna let her ruin everything for me... hmmm but pls let me say it one more time(although she's my sister) she's a FUCKER!

okie dokie i've cooled down =) yea so da day has been pretty boring... hope i'll get a job soon... den maybe i wun be so bored den, yea?

she's a BITCH! you're right... i'm still feelin pissed... i hope da whole world can see her for who she really is... and stop believing her stupid facade.

That Fucker.

man i'm freakin pissed... dat fuckin sis of mine... i guess i'm not goin into da longgggg story and spoil everyone's mood... but she IS a

Slut. Whore. Prostitute. Bitch. Big lump of shit. Big fat of lard. Self-centered. Selfish. Chibai. Nabeh. Kanina. Fucker.


She's ruining my whole life laaaa... i wish she would just get da hell outta my life right this instant.

I hate her. For doing this to my family. For doing this to me.

stupid entry

Three weeks of holidays. One week down.

doomed

i am bored. Freakin bored. B-o-r-e-d. I have nothing to do. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Na-da. Zilch. Kosong. Zero. What am I to do? My pocket is empty, I can't lift my lazy ass off the bed and there isn't even a decent show on tv. And oh yea, I've watched every vcd in my house at least three times.

It is a saturday afternoon. The sun is shining bright. Warm and sunny day. People outdoors. Cars zoomin past me on the road. Probably only one human being stuck indoors. Me. I'm going out of my mind. Insane. Crazy. Lost all sanity. Mad. I can't even have a decent phone conversation.

I'm doomed.

enlightenment

okie i was up da whole night thinkin about what had just happened... and i was readin thru ystd's conversation just now... and i've just realised, dat it was such a silly thing to do, to like him... i mean, what we had between us was just friendship... and i really hope it will stay that way... it's so silly to let sth like ruin our friendship yea? yeps, and now i can officially declare dat i dun like him... wahahahaha!!! it's damn good to be single... i guess i'm now gonna focus all my energy on gettin what i want... and being whoever i wanna be... as for da rest, i'll think about it later =)

i'm so glad that things have turned out this way, come to think of it... right now, i'm waiting for their call, and i'll probably be headin out... time to get some sunshine!

my dramatic entry

i hate everyone now... the whole world... all da damn jerks out there! guys suck... they go around breakin gals hearts and dun even give a damn abt it!!! all gals who agree with me, please raise your hand**

i think dat all guys are overrated and egoistic and that goes especially for all da manjens out there!!! they think they're so freakin handsome... i mean, who cares about blonde roosters and peacocks??? oh, and for those who think that gals over 35 kg are fat, go and get a life, cuz hey ur not skinny either... honestly some guys just talk abt some gals without mirrorin themselves... sorry people but reality check**

and oh yea, sorry for bringin u back down to earth boys, but gals ARE smarter than guys... so please dun go around as though u own da world, cuz that was soooo in da sixties... i guess it's time for someone to downsize ur ego yea? cuz sorry boys, we have da upper hand nw ;)

and so i repeat, all guys are egoistical jerks and boys, please go and get a life!
(and that was The Hand)

i feel like shit

yeps... it's all over... he has just delivered it straight to my face... it's all over.

and i feel like shit.

ruinin my whole life

what da hell am i doin?

i'm ruining my freakin life.

i'm this close to gettin whatever i wanted.

but i'm also this close to destroyin everything.

i'm determined not to ruin everything.

i'm going to forget it and live my life da way i want to.

and i gotta stop bein so weird.

stop stop stop.

i'm doomed... i'm fallin deeper and deeper... and i know that i'm gonna get hurt... i just know it... i try to stop myself, but i just cant... why? why? why? i think he's made things pretty clear long ago... and knowin this, i still let myself fall into da damn trap... i dun want anything to ruin my friendship with him... i dun want sth as silly as this to spoil everything... i want those days back... when it was only friendship... nth else in mind... it was so carefree and fun, those days... okie dokie it's time to stop... i'm just i can stop all this... i know i can... i just have to stop thinkin of him... stop stop stop.

job-hunting

today went out job-hunting... well, i'm gonna go into modellin, so i guess i have to go for da shoot soon...

today when i was out, there were so many things that happened that just reminded me of him... i guess these memories never fade away... oh well, what's gone is gone...

i'm freakin bored... my lil cuz came over and she was soooo cute!!! she was terrorisin all my friends... *lol* but still... i'm freakin bored!!! i seek solace only in talkin to my lesbian partner, fahmz kutz... *wink* i'm goin CRAZY!!! i need something to keep me busy... like NOW!!! i'm going outta my mind... i'm going insane... i'm gonna go crazy, it's only a matter of time... i know it... i can feel it, smell it, taste it... mmmm there goes my sanity... another act of ms dhillon, the drama mama =)

feelin like shit right now...

just came back home... feelin so fucked up now... it's da hols... i know it's da hols... why do i keep lettin her get to me? why? i know very well her freakin intentions... and yet i still let it happen... why? why? why?

i know very well what kinda person i am... and i should be proud of who i am... cuz i think that everything i have gone thru has made me a better person... and yet, why do i get manipulated? why do i let myself believe what she says? i know that i am better now... better than who i used to be... if i'm so confident, den why am i feelin like shit right now?

hols are here!

the hols have officially started... guess i'll take da time to sort everything out and finish up everything... guess i'm gonna be pretty busy huh? i cant wait for skool to start... weird eh? when skool started, i wished for da damn hols to come fast, and now dat da hols are here, i wan skool to start... guess it's da mentality of weird teens like me =)

now that i have so much time on my hands, there goes my imagination, running wild again... hols arent really a good thing for me, you know? bLeah (".)

Floorball Women Championship

today i went to the floorball women championship... wah it was damn power... it was usa vs singapore... singapore lost (of cuz) three to one... honestly, usa was such a great team... they played so well!!! hats off to them*** but they looked so fat, we thought at first they wudn't even be able to run... lol well, it turned out that they ran faster than the singaporean bamboos... lol...

i was being silly this whole week... i actually thought that i liked this guy... thank god i found out i din... it wudn't have a happy ending... trust me =) oh well, i think it was my subconsciousness mind trying to be a drama mama again... lol... life's pretty good right now... and i hope that it will be better from now on...

we loveee to take photos

We Just Loveeeee To Take Photos!!!

hammie on sian yang's shoulder

The Affinity Sian Yang Has with Rina's Hamster

stupid day???

today was a stupid day... everyone was basically in a bad mood... my mood got ruined by ppl as well... damn, it was so spasticated and kuku...

rinz kutz brought her hammie to skool today... it was damn funny... she kept talking abt it... going on and on and on... her hammie also bite ppl... damn violent, just like her =) and

my life generally has been better, ever since i've learnt to let go of certain things... i'm just gonna make da best out of each day and not bother abt stupid and kuku stuff... and i hope that everyone wun be dumb like me to do sth stupid and ruin da whole game... **hint hint** get it? wish u luck!!! and oh yea, even though da klass was fucked up, i still love 'em!!!

life is like a storybook

somebody once asked me if i believed in fairytales... what a dumb question, comin to think of it... of cuz not... the world outside is wayy more complicated, and of cuz things dun turn out da way i want them to.... but sometimes, i find myself wishin, if only my life was a storybook, and i could write my own life, my own destiny... and be whoever i wanna be... but it's never like that yea? comin to think of it, maybe life Is a storybook, only it's not written by us, but by Him...

i guess dat chapter is now closed and time to start another... and time to grow up as well.